Oh, fun, MORE pain.

What to say about "Ender's Game"? People have died, admittedly by way of accidents, and it has caused Andrew "Ender" Wiggins no end of guilt.  Seriously, read it yourself so I don't spoil it for you! Anyway, Ender doesn't want to play the mind games anymore. He wants to go home and see Valentine and his parents. He wants to have the weight of gravity pushing down him.

This book hurts me.

After finishing up with Alice and the gang, I've started a new book called Ender's Game. I remember listening to it once but I wasn't paying much attention then, now though I can't stop reading until I start to cry. Ender's Game is what amounts to psychological torture for Andrew "Ender" Wiggins, a six year old. In this world, the government only allows you two children, yet Ender is a Third. A third is the third child in the family, and as you can tell, that is abnormal, freakish. Ender is teased by the school children and bullied and abused by his brother. It's actually really emotional, and if you have a strong stomach and a mind built like a steel trap you should read this book. PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU FAINT OF HEART AND/OR AN EMOTIONAL PERSON. TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR THIS BOOK: ABUSE, WAR, PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE, AND PSYCHOLOGICAL TRAUMA.

More on the Madness of Alice

Book Update!!!
So on Alice and Wonderland, having continued reading the book, I seemed to realize that the most confusing aspect of this story is the way it is worded. Gives me the nastiest headache this book; Anyhow~ Alice is transversing the land and shes come upon the card guards and the queen. Much yelling about chopping and heads follows. Morbid stuff, really. Read the book yourself for exact wording, I should think. Honestly it takes me at least twelve reads before I understand fully but~.

The Thing That I Love Most

There are many thing that I love, but none can compare to what I love most, and that is life. I love the fact that I'm alive and that because of this life I can travel and learn.  It makes me smile to know that everyday that I take a breath and that my heart still beats and I can see the happiness of others that I truly enjoy all that I have.  Because I'm alive I can sing, read, dance, and write. Because while I'm alive I can love so fiercely that I can hurt so deeply. It is because I have life that I can understand the way others act and because I too go through what they do.  Life is something that I love because it will continue to go on long after I have been taken by the unstoppable force know as death.

Before Order

              There was fire and pain and blood and dark, god it was dark. Everything was black and there's screaming and dear lord its dark. Then it's not. His mind is clear and he remembers. He remembers a time before the sun, before the moon. And he feels a HUNGER. Deep and old and oh so hungry. He remembers wanting to swallow the light and go back to the blessed darkness. He remembers being forced to sleep by those who wished for Order. He remembers being Chaos. He giggled. He was whole once more. He was the end of everything, the end of Death. He could hear the chatter of angels. They want to bring about the apocalypse. Frowning, he growled. They wanted to get rid of his food. It wasn't yet time! Suddenly, he grinned. He was deep and old and he was the serpent that would devour the sun.